Category: General

Yah. Last night, we had a lot of fun., We drove to Superbowl, London, Played around three games of pool, first, Zubin and Girish, then Girish and me and then zubin and me. Poor rashmi, she’s in wheelchair, and that restricts her from many activities. Then on we went to bowling., and Girish was good in Bowling.. Well I did well in the first game, then I started watching “WWF” which was also on the TV, and lost my second game terribly and the third game was a bit close.. OK. I lost.. but I enjoyed it.. We came back at around 2 am today.

I’m feeling sleepy.. Just got back from Feltham after three games of Bowling and pool.. Drove back just now, called up Anandan mama, tried to call pradeep, and prasanth.. cannot connect.. My eyelids have become heavier.. I am going to sleeep…

Friday night, as usual, picked up Zubin and Girish, came to their house, had food and went home and slept. Got up in the morning, washed clothes, went to office to check the backup process, came to zubin’s house, Went home, dried clothes, picked rashmi and Zubin, went to temple, went to Rajesh’s place, Understood about My car.. Where the engine is etc, dropped Rakesh, Pranita and Abhit at his fathers place, came home, had Toasted bread(for lunch!!!), buried again in the book, around 3.45 went to library, picked up a lot of information booklets, went to Zubin’s place, it was locked, went to office, checked the restore again, Called up Perumbavoor, Spoke to paati, appa, amma, anna’s, periyappa, Manni’s, Was not getting connection to badlapur,, neither to Mysore to speak to pradeep., sent a mail to pradeep and asked him to meet on chat tomorrow, came back to Zubin’s house, Saw “Equinox – Blackholes” on TV., started updating the journal.. (Lots of interesting thoughts in between.. Have to write them down during free time). Now we may go to feltham for playing pool, bowling etc… A Normal day!!??

I really am pissed off and am trying to find out what I am doing here.. I should have been bought a farmhouse by now in some remote corner in India, by the side of a river, with basic necessities provied, and a good library, and spent the rest of my life there. But I wonder, why I have decided to stay back, earn “money” and do all the things which I am “supposed” to do??? I hate it sometimes and want to just go away to my own “ashram” (no religion, no god, no followers, no gurus.., and defenitely no philosophies to live by.. just me by myself) and live till I die..

What a dream!!!

Yes.. We’ve done it again. Though I dont care about, the aspects involved in it., it defenitely did boost my “EGO”, sitting near a Jamaican lady, Declaring that, Indian beauty has got no competition. Erica, was closely following the event. She was really pissed off when I said, that, “We have selected one of the not so good looking lady, for Miss World this time,so that we can give other countries some chance., but after seeing the prelimineries, I dont think, anyone else would win, except Miss India., eventhough she is not the best Indian beauty”. I made the statement and went upstairs and buried again into the fountainhead, When all of a sudden, Erica was shouting from downstairs, and I knew that miss India would have become miss world again.

That did defenitely boost my pride.. No wonder, I came to office earlier to join Rajesh in passing the message. O’Boy.. dont I feel proud!! I was mentioning to Pat, that for around 6000 years, every country has invaded India, and now its India’s turn. We are going to invade, not with arms, but with intelligence and subtlety.

Hee.. hee .. The indians are at large!!!!

Ok. Yesterday, I went to pick up Girish, went to their home, went to sainsbury’s from there and then came back home. I made a curry after a long time. Shared the food with Erica. Cleaned my room., Hasnt vacuumed it yet. I’ll do that today.. Went to sleep, Got up early, had a good wash, made toast, and had it with peanut butter.. Its been a long time since I had a proper breakfast. Well I had it today. Filled the balance curry into chapatis, got ready and got to office.. I am enjoying the drive now-a-days. Great feeling. Came to office., I waned to do something to organise my website.. Its not at all proper now.. but I will wait till this weekend. Smuggled out some time to update the site… well added a recepie there. I will have to sort out the site soon. Hell, I have got Java, HTML and a lot of things to learn. Praveen’s mail had come, replied him in detail, informed him of the journal.

Had the normal time-pass in the office and also sorted out many problems. Has to do early shifts next wednesday to friday and have to come early tomorrow.. (if only I dont forget).

Well our office Christmas Party is coming next weekend., and I am looking forward for it. So many things to do. I havent mailed anyone for a long time. I think I should repy each and everyone over the weekend. I was planning to go to Pranita’s house today and it seems that no ones there. I will go home directly and relax.

Jackie had said that I am putting on weight, and she would like to see my slimmer version., as when I came here. Gimme time.. and I will do that as well..

Another day ends..

“Reality bites.,
sometime it barks also.”

Came to office today morning, Worked, Spoke to Rashmi, Girish, Sunita. Had lunch. Got mail from Pradeep.. (He’s going great guns!!!)., Ramesh called, Ate from Zakir’s lunch box also, Finished off some important works.. updated jounral occasionally,closed down everything., Girish need some time, so I will stay back some more time., so I am updating journal.. Another day goes..

Neesha rushed home., Her mother has been admitted to hospital.. Her eyes were filled when she left. The news I have is that, the doctors have to urgently operate on her pancreas..Hope she will get well.

How does it feel, when a near and dear one dies, as ones mom. I tried imagining death of each and every person close to me., and I was not shaken much. I did feel sad, but I could live with it. Accepting death as a natural thing seems to be the most unnatural thing for Humanity. Many dosent want to speak about it at all. Finally I imagined my death., I felt more sad., not because of my death, but for the sadness others will feel at my death. I imagined my death really vividly, My deadbody lying down with my toes of the legs tied together, cotton in the nose and the thumbs tied together. Well, it didnt make any difference to me. I think its all turning out to be a puzzle(meaningless??!!!). I am yet to find any meaning at all with the life. You take birth, study, become a great man, or become a normal man, some leave mark on the history, some dosent., but all die away.. unsatisfied., puzzled.. I am waiting for a meaning to life..(learning???)
Silence again
uncomfortable

Does life ebb away, unnoticed by any one. I feel it happen that way.. Time is not far, when will look back at our life and just wonder, at the way which time has flown past and the way we have “lived”.

Yesterday Smruti had called home for dinner, and drove to her home at Northwood..Well infact I followed her Jaguar. Had good food. From there drove to Mark’s home, to collect my letters. I was really surprised to find that there was no letter for me. Whatever letter he had got for me he had misplaced. Well I cannot accuse him, because I should have collected it long long time ago. Well, what is gone is gone, and then returned home, buried myself into “The Fountainhead” again and went for sleep.. Another day has gone by…

“You’ll be history, even before you realize it”
Silence
calm