Month: January 2001

Well, I’ll be leaving now to Denmark, and I seem to be ready..

Yesterday, afternoon onwards, it was pretty good hectic drive, I had picked up Ramesh to drop his excess baggage with the cargo people (He’s going back to India.. on 17th), then drove to Royston, The traffic was huge on M25, and I was about to have an accident on A1(M). Saved by breadth of the hair. Thanks for BSM training which I had for driving.. I put Emergency Brakes!!.

Dropped Ramesh off, had “Garma-garam Bhajia” at his house, before picking his other luggages and coming back. I was behind the wheels for nearly four hours yesterday.. and though Jagjit Singh and Lucky Ali were singing for me in the car, still I felt exhausted.

When I drove back, I directly went to Zubin’s place, its so silent since they have left for holidays.. I was lying down there till around 10.40, with the fireplace going. After that, got up and left for home, only to install a digital camera in the computer for Jimmy, my house owner. I must have slept after all this by around 12.15..
Now Hariprasad Chaurasiya was playing “Miyan ki Malhar” for me.

Morning, got off to postoffice to pickup the registred mail for Zubin, which he wanted me to pickup and the atmosphere was f***ing cold!! Came to office after that.. done the final bit of preparation.. and got to leave now to home and then airport..

I’m feeling lonely now-a-days.

Well, I’m 80% ready by now.. I think, I underestimate myself sometimes(sometimes??!!).. Has to do full preparation, today and tomorrow.. and Then I will be ready. Praveen had sent a mail.. I will have to reply to him…

Yesterday I drove to Pranita’s place, had my dinner (Pizza & Garlic Bread) there (I didnt want to cook myself a dinner, after the day-before’s “Masala Dosa”), I was really tired and wanted to go home and sleep at the earliest. Left by around 8.30 to home, and as soon as I reached home, I surprised myself.. I cleaned my room!! polished my Shoes!! Ironed Clothes for today!! Something seems to be wrong with me. I would’ve finished all outstanding “personal” work, were it not for a “Jackie Chan” Movie.. “Who Am I”.. a typical Jackie Chan movie.. I loved it. I was seeing a movie of Jackie Chan after a long time.

I went to sleep at around 12.30 am, as Pt.Hariprasad Chaurasiya, was playing his flute for me.. Raag:Hamsadhwani.. ZZZZ

Got in to office early.. Ramesh will be coming down to London today, has to pick him up. God.. I Carol just gave me Tickets to Copenhagen, Denmark.. I am flying tomorrow.. and I dont know what to do yet….

Yesterday night., I made “Masala Dosa”., well to be “politcally correct” I tried to make Masala Dosa. Well I’m am happy to write in my journal, that I succeeded in making, Boiled potato-onion curry, in semi cooked rice pancakes.!!!, and not “Masala Dosa”, as I wanted to..! Someday…, someday..

I was in office till 8.40 yesterday only to come in at 7 today morning. Directly tried to log on to the client’s system., The whole system is down at the client’s site and I cannot do anything till it comes up. To lift me up was a “smile” in the Lotus Inbox.

Its work, work and work.. here at office. I will leave now.. enough of this. I got some chocolates today, and I will drop by at Pranita’s place and give choclate to her kid.. Havent met them for a long time..

I put my heart out., on one mail., only to realize a bit later, that It hurt one, whom I really care about.

O’God.. Will I ever grow up?!?!

sad

It seems that a good night sleep has soothed me a lot. I had some dreams, but I seem to be too lazy to remember them. Drove to office and the driving has now become a second habit.. but I still do enjoy driving a lot. In the office and The first thing to do.. reply!! and then get to work..
Bhaja Govindam by MSS
Can’t Say

Work, Work and Work.. Has a lot of things lined up. Coming weekend, I will have to go to Denmark also, and I have to prepare for that. Meanwhile, I need to look into EDI, and Application support. God.. I think I am a java object, working like the concept of polymorphism.

Received a mail back from Radhu.. I really got upset., maybe I’m intruding into her and she dosent want it. Sighh.. well the mind machine has begun the work again.. churning churning. In the evening, pradeep sent a mail regarding, the message that appa wanted to convey me., and invited me for the chat. I was busy and asked him to come after some time. Later while we were chatting, the Yahoo Messenger went offline again and again. I decided to call him up over phone as I wanted to speak to him.. Whoa.. Another intellectual.. a brilliant brain hiding under cranium. I never run out of inspiring people. spoke to him for a while, till the card got over., and also had a word or two with mama..

Went home late, made myself a “cheru-payaru curry” and rice, and had it with yoghurt and pappodom.. Hmm.. I have started cooking better. worked on HTML page on the web.. its still on the hard disk.. as soon as its complete have to put it live.. Soon I shut that down and was thinking about the one and only.. I have to reply her.. I dont know, but I just love her a lot and care about her. Maybe I am just too selfish, to have her with me for life.. may be I should keep silent.. I shouldnt be expecting.. I dont know.. a lot of thoughts.. I dont know when I fell asleep..

Needless to say.., got up really late. Logged in the net, to find Pradeep’s message regarding the chat. Replied him to meet online at 10.30 indian time. He’s at Tpra. Went home, had a shower, washed clothes, vacuumed the house, dried clothes, came back to Zubin’s place.. I miss them.. maybe its a feeling for a couple of days.. but this home has become silent. Logged on to net, updated journal with previous days entries.
Went out again to get the phone card., came back, spoke to Appa, Amma, Kumar Anna, Prasanth and everyone.. Suresh anna has already left to Sabarimalai by walk from home!!!! Thats going to be a hell of a walk. Prasanth was in his usual self. Everything is going fine there. Spoke to amma.. I miss all of them. Sheeesh.. Homesickness… By the time, I kept the phone down and logged on the internet, pradeep was there online, sent him two smileys, expecting reply.. and he logged off.. Maybe.. he waited for me and didnt see me. will have to mail him soon. Sent a mail to Radhu. read thorugh the HTML book.. has to finish HTML within two days and start off with learning Java.

Hmm.. lot of things to do.

Today, Zubin and Girish had to finish off whatever they had left, since they will be flying off in the evening. We covered all that in the morning, to be back at home by around 1.30… and I was just lying down.. and off I went into a deep sleep.. only to get up around 4.30.. had a wash.. got fresh.

They are leaving.. drove them to Airport, where Ramesh and family was waiting for us. God.. Zubin, Rashmi and Girish were really on seventh heaven. They are going back home… Hmm.. maybe another 6 months wait for me before I fly back. I really am jealous!!! but nothing can be done…based on silly emotions.. can you. Well well.. they went and I took Ramesh and family and drove them to Royston. Had dinner there around 10.30, and took Ramesh’s excess luggage with me, as he has to send it by frieght to India. Since I had a car, I was just helping him out.. else he will have to carry the 30 kg bag all by himself all the way. Drove back in the night itself, and reached Zubin’s home.. Felt lonely. A japanese “erotic” movie was going on on channel 4. It was not really erotic.. it was really a “blue movie”. Went to sleep in the sofa itself.

The conversation was going in the midnight in between packing.. Zubin & Rashmi are the main characters..

Praveen: arre yaar, Rashmi, I miss her a lot. and the worse thing is that now I cannot even meet her.
Rashmi : dekh, there is nothing known as true love., its all compromise.. you just adjust..
Praveen: nahi yaar.. (protesting)
Zubin : Dekh, uska doosare kisi ke saath chakkar hai kya..??
Praveen: Mujhe nahin lagta.. lekin mujhe maloom bhi nahi hai
Rashmi : Lekin you never tell the details in full..
Praveen: I’m still a fool in these things..I dont know how to express this clearly
Zubin : acha.. mein experience se bolta hoom, sun, tu uske peeche pad.. koi ladki, jaldi haan nahi bolti hai… Mein bhi Rashmi ke peeche bahut pappad pele hain
Praveen: Lekin kaise yaar.. I know that I love her a lot and thats it.. time has flown by and still I like her. and I am sure she knows that too..lekin..
Zubin : Tu uska pata dhoond nikal aur usko flowers aur gift bhej, internet se tu yeh kar sakta hai..
Praveen: Galti kiya yaar.. Uska birthday abhi gaya.. Mein bhulakkad hi rahoonga, sudharoonga nahin. Mein gift bhej sakta tha.
Rashmi : tu uske saath vapas communcation chaloo kar. aur abhi valentine day aa raha hai.. tabhi usko gift kuch bhej..
Praveen: haan yaar.. kuch karna padega.. nahin to devdaas banna padega..(smiling sheepishly)
Zubin : Aur jyaada iske baare mein soch mat. dimag ka dahi ban jayega.. Experience se bolta hoon
Praveen: hmmm..(agreeing.. still smiling sheepishly)