Month: November 2000

I forgot to journal properly my last two days..

Lemme begin with Sunday.. Went for a good swim., the pool was relatively empty and I had a good time swimming for around 45 minutes.. Interesting thing is that, even when you are swimming, you can think about so many things. It seems as if I go to the pool for thinking and not swimming..

After Swimming came back home and from there again to Zubins home. Had a chat with pradeep.. None of the others turned up.. I was blurting out proverbs to Pradeep..(I was wondering, as to whether, I am trying to impress anyone).. I had to end the chat as one of the friend of Zubin came with his wife.,(Had to get some groceries in time– Rashmi’s Command). Had general timepass till they left, then had food, went for a nap., woke up at around 7.00, watched some telly, had food, went home and again slept.

Monday:- As usual got up late, reached office late(I always blame others, not me). And Yesss!! I got the Car.. Took it for test drive, felt comfortable, after further test by a colleague(Seatal), I finally Bought the Car!! Yippeee I am a car owner!!! (I called up Prasanth and told him).

Yesterday night I went home in Car., I called up Zubin and asked them to meet me on a particular bus..(I wanted to give a surprise to them). Then I drove to home., Visibility was poor (I was driving for the first time in the Dark). Nearly caused an accident(My stars are in good position I believe) and reached the bus stop where I waited for Zubin and Girish..They were surprised to see me parked..(they were expecting me on the bus), picked them up and went to tesco’s.. for some shopping and then went to zubins home.. Zubin did the pooja on the Car.. Took Rashmi and Zubin for a drive.. Went home changed and came back in Car.. had food with them and then went home again for sleep.. I must have got into the bed at around 10.15pm with “The Fountainhead” by Ayn Rand.. When I looked up from thebook, it was already 12.15 (Whoo.. This novel is interesting).. Had a glance at Java book..(Its lying untouched for nearly a week now).. and went to sleep..(Kandukondein Kandukondein cassette playing in the background)..

Got up today morning.. Made food(Thair Sadam), and got into CAR!! and drove to office.. Its really busy at office for last two days.. Wasnt able to reply to many mails.. Has to do today.. and will be sitting late..

Hey.. Yoohooo.., I have brought a Car!!!., My first Car. Ford, Fiesta Popular.(Second hand).. And I will be driving home today from work!! Planning to give Girish and Zubin a surprise.. I feel really euphoric..(I have to drive really carefully I think) I will write about the experience later.. Very busy at work now..

Its a beautiful Sunday morning., Got up at around 7.30. Its cloudy outside. Had a wonderful thought in the loo..

“A day is not good or bad.,
Its your perceptions that make it so..”

Looking forward for a great day., I have got chat scheduled with Pradeep and Prem will likely join in as well., But for now., I should be going home and from there to swimming..

A Great Day begins..
Gayatri mantra chanting is playing on the CD
calm

Saturday.,
Got up on time,
remained on the bed,
had breakfast,
went to homebase.,
Got Rose plant.,
As rashmi wanted it.,
Girish was with me.,
He is sometimes irritating.,
I need silence sometimes.,
I just want to be with myself.,
I need a silent partner.,
I really miss someone here.,
who can understand without words.,
Went to Comet.,
Selected a Mixer for me,
Its out of stock.,
Came out empty handed,
went to Southall,
bought frozen “idiappam”,
caught a bus back,
wondered at the crowd in bus,
came home & made idiappam.,
it tasted rubbish.,
went to my room,
it was getting dark outside.,
though it was only 4.30.,
snuggled into my bed,
felt warm & it was cold outside.,
went to sleep for around 3 hours.,
got up around 8, cleaned my room.,
went for a refreshing bath.,
Zubin called., when are you coming.,
said within 1/2 hour.,
Went to Zubins place.,
Had pizza with Yoghurt!!!.,
saw the movie., “In the line of fire”.,
Clint Eastwood movie.,
Called Prasanth at 12.30am.,
Everythings Ok.,
Mani comes to bombay today night.,
Called up Perumbavoor.,
Everyone fine there.,
Called Praveen,
No ones picking up.,
Came to journal.,
not feeling like describing,
Updated it.,
with lines here and there.,
going to shutdown laptop.,
its already 1.30.,
and go to sleep.,
Another productive day.,
goes by., with out any productivity…
jab koi baat bigad jaaye.. from “Jurm”
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I had a wonderful discussion with Ron today., It all started with me “composing” a poem for Neesha, sitting opposite to me and singing.. All started laughing out., Well I cited them the case of Vincent Van Gough(pronounced gouf), who was not appreciated during his lifetime, and was appreciated well after his death.

I have seen Gough’s “Yellow Sunflower” painting(in a photo).. Its good. As I wanted to know more about paintings, I went to Ron, who was listening to all these. He has a good knowledge. He told me the bits and pieces of Van Gough’s story., He also told about Monet(pronounced Mo-ney as in neigh). Monet was an impressionist and he had many paintings to his credit., He had a big garden where many people used to visit., Van Gough have stayed there to work on paintings for sometime. Van Gough thought his paintings to be rubbish, moreover he has dumped by the girl whom he loved. Ron told that, when he was rejected by the girl, he cut his right ear and gave to the girl(not a intelligent thing to do!!)., any way he died poor. But now his paintings are worth a fortune.

I asked Ron, whether he has had the feelings which one should have, when you see a really good painting. He said he had had feelings when he saw some paintings., the most distinctive one in his memory was in France. He said he had been to the gallery where Monalisa painting was kept(he told me the gallery name..I forgot), all the people were looking at the painting of monalisa(which was kept behind a bullet proof screen)., Ron said, opposite to that was this big painting of the “Last Supper”., and he had really enjoyed that painting. Discussion led to Pablo Picasso, and he told me an news item., once a Picasso painting was stolen., In the news they announced that which side of the painting was up and which was down., so that whoever had the painting has atleast hangs it properly!!!!

It was a good day and the friday bug was catching on on everyone, I left with Zakir at around 5.45, went to Homebase. Rashmi wanted some flowers for the vase, I told her that it is better to have a live plant than have cut flowers, which she agreed, but wanted me to tell the same to Zubin. In homebase, I got a good collection of plants, there was a wonderful pot of button roses., really nice., but I was wondering whether they will like them. Finally bought a white Chrysanthemum flower pot., and the pot was kept in a hand basket(woven with cane). I am sure Rashmi, Zubin and Girish will like it. From there I went to Sainsbury’s, bought water and milk and then directly came to Zubin’s house.. My weekends normally is spent at Zubin’s place..

“A good wife always forgives her husband when she’s wrong.”

It always happens to me!! After a meeting with some customers I was at my desk., and someone had kept a hammer on my desk. (Why dont people place back the things, where they took it from..) The moment I lifted it, there comes the customer with a question., is that the tool you use?? “Yes!!! my dear sir, I solve all my problems with hammer.” (Well, luckily I didnt have any screwdrivers on my desk)!

Yesterday night, after food., I was retiring to my bed, with my cup of Horlicks (I’ve inherited ‘Horlick’s attributes from my paati(she’s no more now)). I was listening to the song “Palkom pe chalte chalte” sung by Yesudas, from the movie Daayra(I think its “Daayra” anyway I remember that it was directed by Amol Palekar). A really beautiful song. I normally listen to some music at night, Yesterday was a special experience. I switched off the lights, pulled up the curtains, and throught the double glazed windows, I could see the moon and the starts., and was listening to the above cassette. Someone special had popped into my thoughts. I wonder, why I still stick to my old feelings, instead of ignoring them.. Anyway It was a great feeling yesterday night..

Well.., Dreams again!!! Today the dream was about my marriage., My parents had arranged a marriage for me, without any intimation to me. I am taken directly to the marriage venue., I saw the face clearly of the bride. I cannot recollect it now, but I have the memory that I see and talk to her in the dream. I tell her regarding my love for another lady and she wants me to forget it!!(Good try.. Lady!!) there are many problems before the marriage and luckily, I get out of this dream before I marry. (I am not ready for marriage yet.. Its a long way for me) Lucky that such things happen only on dreams.

I had a wonderful dream yesterday.. My Death. I remember being hit by a vehicle and I fell lying on a pool of blood. I cannot see myself, but I can see people rushing around me. I am totally immobilized. Well., but there was no pain. If I remember right, it was a wide road and it was near a junction. I told the dream to Rashmi later today, who said that its good to dream about death as it means logevity of life!!(Girish also said the same thing)Who wants to live longer, anyway.

In the afternoon, had gone for a walk. This time with Ron, Rajesh & Gurjinder. Gurjinder came back midway as the path was a bit muddy. Had a good chat with Ron and Rajesh., and the walk was enlivening. I should be feeding the ducks frequently.. I did it yesterday., but I think I should buy two packets of Bread instead of one.

Pathetic situtaion our Country is in. George Fernandes worked out a “Formula” to release “Matinee Idol” Raj Kumar…(todays Times of India) from the Captivity of Veeappan!!! Kargil, Khandhahar, Cricket Scam.. Mmmm. I love my Country.