Neesha rushed home., Her mother has been admitted to hospital.. Her eyes were filled when she left. The news I have is that, the doctors have to urgently operate on her pancreas..Hope she will get well.
How does it feel, when a near and dear one dies, as ones mom. I tried imagining death of each and every person close to me., and I was not shaken much. I did feel sad, but I could live with it. Accepting death as a natural thing seems to be the most unnatural thing for Humanity. Many dosent want to speak about it at all. Finally I imagined my death., I felt more sad., not because of my death, but for the sadness others will feel at my death. I imagined my death really vividly, My deadbody lying down with my toes of the legs tied together, cotton in the nose and the thumbs tied together. Well, it didnt make any difference to me. I think its all turning out to be a puzzle(meaningless??!!!). I am yet to find any meaning at all with the life. You take birth, study, become a great man, or become a normal man, some leave mark on the history, some dosent., but all die away.. unsatisfied., puzzled.. I am waiting for a meaning to life..(learning???)
Silence again
uncomfortable